08.23.08 / 6:46 pm

today, my heart beats in my stomach, not my chest,
and the smell of human sweat
reaches like shadow, the specter of a mid-day heat.
in the evening, the animal calls and cigarette smoke
manifest this delirium, a panicked anxiety -
restless limbs and aimless spirit.
i am without my senses, an existence free of pain.

then, this immeasurable thirst;
i see water, dive, and am one again,
filled with human wonder.
how many other bodies have i had,
to destroy or beautify?
how many times have i known this coming apart
and the subsequent joining together?